Timing

Have you ever felt like something was just right and you know it's right but timing is a big problem? That's where I am in my life right now. When someone comes into your life and changes your outlook on life in a positive way. When a person cares about you more than you ever thought they could or would for that matter. When you love this person and they love you. But there is just that one problem. Timing. I'm hoping my situation will eventually turn into something amazing. Just staying positive about these kinds of situations and not letting little things or other people get you down. 

Crushes?!?!?!?!

When you think about crushes you think about little kids or elementary school and boys having cooties and things like that. But it's so much more different when your in high school and you have a crush on someone because it's a little more serious and you kind of know a lot more about love. Like i can remember having a crush in elementary school and it was so like care free and just not really real. Now though it is completely different. You kind of go through a process when your older and have a crush. First you try to become friends and thats cool and everything. Then you become really close like best friends and thats really great. Then you come to where I am right now. How do you take the next step in this confusing situation. Do you try to make things happen or let them happen on there own? Do you just keep it as being best friends and not trying to turn it in to anything else? These are the complicated questions I am dealing with right now and I have no idea what to do.

New Beginning

I'm in a very excited place right now in my life and I'm have excited and have scared. High school ends in like 40 days which is exciting but I have always said I never want to leave high school. In like 4 months I start the whole college experiencing and I think it will be very overwhelming and a huge change from high school. But I'm feeling so ready for this. Like this is what needs to happen so I can push past place I'm in and move on to something new and fresh and exciting.

Memories

I don't know how people deal with losing someone there close to and then feeling like all the memories you had with them are gone with that person. I have a hard time remembering time or experiences I shared with my grandma and she has been gone 5 months. How do you preserve thoughts, feelings, and memories about people you have lost. I really need to figure out the answer to that question.

Making a Difference??

**Can you make a difference? How can you make a difference? Is there need for       improvement? Where? Why? Will this influence someone's life in a good way? 

-Have these questions ever come to your mind? Have you ever tried to make a difference? I feel like anyone and everyone can make a difference, no matter what age, race, gender, or religion. With all the problems and struggles going on in America today there are so many different ways to make a difference. Personally, I think there is always a need a for improvement, not that things aren't good enough now but we could make things better for other people very easily. The world needs improvement in all places and in tons of different ways because people are struggling. 

 Obviously you can do so many things to influence peoples lives in a good way. I personally am trying to make a difference by participating in the Big Brothers/ Big Sisters program. My "little" looks up to me as her role model and confides in me with problems or if she is excited about something. Its an amazing bond and I know she isn't the only one gaining some thing from it.